kilo29

07 November 2008 @ 11:19 am

Hello again from Afghanistan!
What a day and night! Last night was very interesting i must say. Slept most the night in the basement or bunker of this building im staying at. This aint the hilton i can tell ya for sure. But to my brothers and sisters in the field it was luxery. Today was very interesting I got to go on patrol with the Afghanistan Drug Enforcment Unit. Im still here so that is a good thing 12 days and a wake up and im homeward bound Semper Fi!

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06 November 2008 @ 07:30 am

Alive and Well In Jalalabad, Afghfanistan

Hey Gents:

Just want to let me people know that im safe for now. Have had a chance to use my new issued Springfield 1911 .45 woo hoo lucky me. It is 30 degrees and hazy here. Jalalabad, Afghanistan. Im so looking forward to getting out of here. Just got back from a interesting field ops. We did take some fire from a small group of Taliban Rebles that finally sneaked back across the border into Pakistan. The purpose of this week operartions is to learn more about Drug trade routes the terrorist groups are using to move Red Heroin. Anyway Just thought those interested would like to know? Happy Birthday to my beloved corps and Marine Brothers Semper FI

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10 August 2008 @ 03:52 am

Happy Birthday Sir!

Sorry to have missed your BD. I am wishing you a very heart felt belated Birthday! Hope you had a good one.

Current Music: Happy Birthday To YOU

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08 August 2008 @ 05:56 am

just another day in paradise

Hello all, I started my first full week at work monday and am off this weekend. It was uneventful week. How am I feeling? Not great to be honest. Well i do have a question for you all maybe you guys can answer it for me? Since i am back at work i have been feeling kinda depressed and i don't know why? Is it common after major surgery which i had about three weeks ago to have Post OP depression? Im also having pain with one lyproscopy incisions it is the larger scar which is about 1.5 inches located right under my rib cage on the right side? That scar still is sinsitive and feels like it has a knot in it? Other wise not a damn thing going on here. Feel kinda lonely but oh well life goes on in paradise. Have a great weekend.

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27 July 2008 @ 02:00 am

a pup in pardise recovering

What happened was I had problems with my Gall bladder that just got worse. I didn't realize how sick I was and even though I noticed slight symptoms I was still oblivious to what was going on inside my body till it was already in the first stages of Jaundice. OK let me see how I can explain this? OK on the morning of July 11th as I was packing and getting ready to leave for my long weekend I noticed that there was a slight or mild yellowish color to my skin and eyes. To be honest I thought it was something with the lighting in the bathroom where I noticed it. I didn't have any pain or any other symptoms of something wrong with me till later that evening after I had eaten a very spicy meal which is what triggered the whole episode? After eating dinner that night I went back to my hotel room getting ready for bed had gone to the bathroom and started having major pain in my whole abdomen. I thought at first it was indigestion and gas after eating dinner? So I just laid down and curled up with a pillow between my legs and about 20 minutes the pains went away. Only to come back about an hour in severe pain later which woke me up. This time the pain was much worse and didn't go away it just seem to get worse. I just rolled around on the bed, tried every possible thing I could think of from a cold wet towel to standing up using a pillow on my stomach ETC. That pain never went away at times it was so intense I could hardly catch my breath. A bit of history about this. Last September this same thing happened while me and Mom were in Vegas but after a few hours. plus Mom has some pain medication which helped the pain it went away and I didn't eat anything spicy the rest of the trip. Which is what triggered it while we were in Vegas? I was obivious to know what happened and since I was in Northern New Mexico I wanted to eat real Mexican food while I was in Chama. By 0530 the pain had not let up and just seem to hurt worse. I went a head and checked out of my Motel. The clerk asked me if I was Okay and I said no I need to find a hospital. She asked should she call a Paramedic? My thinking at the time was knowing me and my luck they would call the paramedic and be on my way to the hospital and by the time we got there these pains would go away so I said no I will drive myself to the hospital. The nearest hospital was 80 miles away in Espinola, NM which is north of Santa Fe. I recall seeing the sign for the hospital the day before as I was on my way to Chama. I drove as fast as possible thank God I didn't see one cop but had I seen one I had a legit excuse for speeding. I finally made it to the hospital ER and just a lot of things were going through my mind. Since I am not a resident of Espinola and these people had never seen me before and I was complaining of severe pain was would they believe me that I was really sick and that I needed pain meds. I can recall having to arrest so called people who were drug users trying to fake severe pain symptoms to get their Narcotic fix. And also paranoid that would I have to wait all day to get seen like some hospitals. Well, soon as I walked through the door things just fell into place and was quickly admitted to the ER. I think I waited maybe 20 minutes before the doctor came in said this young man is in severe pain give him something STAT. OK that problem taking care of they began the process of seeing what was wrong, had blood work drawn and then taken to get a chest Xray. DR. Montoya who was seeing me said my blood work was showing some problems internally and I needed to have an ultra sound my stomach was very sensitive to the touch and I had said that I have had problems with Gall stones. After my blood work came back he asked me did I have hepatitis cause I was in the first stages of Jaundice and my eyes were three shades of yellow and my body was turning a yellowish color which scared me to death. I was in tears and just scared to death I was dying. I felt like I was dying I was still in pain so they amped up the pain meds so now I was feeling pretty good. The Ultra sound tech came and took me to get the Ultra Sound and while in the process became very quiet which to me wasn't a good sign cause we had been kinda joking but I was high on pain meds usually enough to knock me out cold, but I was awake and very alert for somebody who had enough morphine to put a bull elephant down. I asked OK what is going on? She said IM sorry IM not allowed to tell you but every major organ is where is should be. So I asked OK if I ask questions all you have to say is YES or NO. Again she said sir I am not allowed to tell you. So I was like OK well soon enough the doctor would tell me? So after that I went back to the ER and Dr. Montoya came back in about 10 minutes and asked me did I have family in Espinola? I said no I don't live in this part of New Mexico. Well, he said your going to have to have emergency surgery to remove a blockage in my bile duct which is spreading poison into your body and will most likely have to have your Gall Bladder removed. I kinda expected the Gall Bladder cause my doctor here had told me if I had anymore problems with my gall bladder I would have to have surgery. So about an hour later I was being Medivaced to Love Lace Hospital in Albuquerque, NM. The first 12 hours was spent in ICU and then had to have a Gastroenterologist remove the stones from my bile duct. That was on Sunday the 13th and then on the 15th had Lyproscopy surgery to remove my Gall Bladder. I was told my entire Gall bladder was filled with stones. I been home since the 17th of July and IM doing much better. I go back in three weeks to have stints removed from my bile duct. I am feeling much better and starting to regain my strength. I go back to work August 1, 2008, and wont be able to start field duty again for 3 months so IM going to be riding a desk which I am not looking forward to. But I will survive.

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23 July 2008 @ 05:37 am

waisting away in a margaritaville paradise

Greetings! To all of my pack members, Marine Corps Brothers, and to all dearly loved friends and my extended families. I am finally back from a real live nightmare living hell that has transpired in paradise. Hope you have missed me as much as I have missed you. HUGS!

Before I tell you about what’s new in Paradise I need to caution all readers that when I tell you of my many adventures in Paradise, that I am very detailed when I talk about myself or tell war stories and so on. I sometimes get too detailed about things and will stop mid sentence delving deeper in to more history and leaving cliff hanging effects when I need describe and paint you the full picture of where I have been. I have so many things to share and talk about with you fine men and pups. Now that said it is time to go ahead sit back and strap in lads cause I’m about to take you on a roller coaster ride from hell.

If you made it through my monologue and haven’t died from boredom and fell asleep yet? It’s time to highball!

I have been very Ill had two major back to back life threatening surgeries, the first being an emergency surgery and 12 hours before surgery in ICU. I was high as Georgia Pine. I am taking some kick ass painkillers from hell Since July 12, 08. Therefore, if I go off into left field you will just have to deal with it. In addition, be patient with me. Get comfy cause this will take more than a few minutes to explain. It has been seven days now that I have been home back in Hobbs at my mom’s place. Sabo is fine in case you wanted to know about him. He knows daddy been sick. Still like any pup wants to go play, train and bond. However, he is restless which is normal for Akitas. I assure you I am not trying to over exert myself. My body lets me know ASAP!

On the 11th of July, I went on my three-day weekend I get once a month to Chama, New Mexico. The weekend of July 11th, 12th, and 13th.

Why you may ask?

I am train and railfan freak. I love trains and have always wanted to ride a real live Steam train through the Rocky Mountain or for that matter, something I just don’t get to see or do much? Chama, New Mexico is located close to Farmington, NM but is more to the east almost dead center of the state. The trip took nine hours, which was fun and just enjoyed seeing mountains and rivers, and Canyons and even a lake I have never heard of or seen for that matter. I have lived half my life in NM and 12 years as NM State trooper now retired. The furthest North I have ever traveled was Raton, and Farmington and Angel Fire, Taos New Mexico. Now I can say I have seen it all and some time soon to finally get my Train Ride fix i was cheated of.

Gentlemen at this time I am not feeling very well so I will continue this email and blog entry when I don’t hurt so badly. I love you guys please take and be safe. Hand Salute Simper Fi Carry On!

Respectfully,

C.

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Current Music: comfortably numb

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03 May 2008 @ 01:14 am

Thoughts of a lone pup in pardise

Greetings to all friends and packmemebers from paradise. It been a busy busy week for me in paradise. I just started training school for continued edecation courses on International terrorism and International Drug trade. So that is what i will be doing for rest of the month.

So far it has been very interesting and informative. Last week i was on the road going to meetings for work and did a Field training audit in San Diego, CA. It been a very windy week with wind gusts up to 60 MPH in various place within the state. It is still very dry and have had more than few grass fires. Another bad thing going is a big forrest fire that is to the east of Alubuquerque, NM. They had this thing undercontrol but with all the high winds and low humidity and very dry in places throught out the state. Making it hard to get a handle on the many fires we have had and the one near Albuquerque. ok you can all WAKE UP im done with the NM state weather and fire reports.

So what else is new in Paradise? I would like to introduce a new pack member to my packmates and friends. As most of you know my K9 partner Shinobi died from cancer back in January. May he forever rest in peace. I miss him alot but he is a better place now. Some of you have asked if i would ever get me another pup to train and take away some the loneliness and the seperation anxiety i have had since "OBI" passed away.

I said yes i would sometime further down the road? Well I finally made it down that road. I got me a new pup? He is the Nephew to Shinobi. Same bloodline. OBI's brother lives here in the US in Texas. While i was in San Antonio TX i got a call about this pup and was asked if i wanted him? Well i said lets do it! So anyway i made arrangements to have him sent to San Antonio since the family who has owns OBI's brother lived close by. My new Akita pup is Sabo. He is 6 months old or will be May 6th. Before you ask, will he be used for Law Enforcment? Yes, he will be a trained Attack on command Schutzhund trained Military Working Dog. Please welcome to the Pack our new pup "Sabo San"

Have safe weekend Gentlemen! Keep in touch

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19 April 2008 @ 04:10 am

Thoughts of a lonely pup in Paradise.

Greetings all, it been a much better day in paradise. It warmed up again but it still windy. Today is supposed to be back in the 80's very dry and the winds are supposed to pick up again. Today there is a Red Flag Warning for the entire state. State Wide we are a fire hazard from hell waiting to happen. Welcome to Spring time in New Mexico and those who dont like the weather, wait five mintues? It will change. Im serious i seen it happen. All four seasons in one day. So what is new in paradise. Today is passover and starts at sundown for those who are of the Jewish Faith. Happy Passover to good friend of mine from Haifa Isreal have a safe trip to your relatives sir. Shalom!

Today 4/18 was my haircut day for my motivating freshly cut High and Skin Tight shave WOOF! I LOVE IT. It was also a day of joy and celebration. The bonds of friendship with a young man i truely care about have been restored from the heart I thank you pup. I would also like to make a small statement to my Pack members and commrades and the people i love. I been through alot this past week. I humbly ask for forgiveness. I have not been myself and I have lashed out and said some things in past posts i truely regret. But today is a new beginning for all and want to let you all know i love each and every one of you.

This past evening i went to see "Forgtten Kingdom" the new Jacki Chan movie. If you enjoy action, adventure and add hand to hand combat and Martial Arts as much as i do it is a Kick Ass Movie. I highly recommend and insist you see it! I am seriously thinking of going to a matinee and see it again before i have to go back to work.

I will be out of town in the field doing inspections and going to meetings. Monday I go to Harlingon, TX and Laredo, TX. Tuesday I will be in San Antonio, TX, Wednsday Lordsburg, NM and Tucson, AZ, Thursday Yuma, AZ. Friday San Diego, CA. and will be back Friday night. Well that is it for now. Take care and be safe. KILO29 is 10-98 10-8 Code 4

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18 April 2008 @ 01:55 am

Thoughts of a lonely pup in paradise.

Greetings all. TGIF! This is my three day weekend off from Work. Will be at Moms. Today the average temp here was 30 to 40 degrees cooler than 4/16. Huge cold front passing through. No rain which we all desperately need. the high was in the 60's or it was last time i check the temp this afternoon for some that is perfect weather but you add 20 plus MPH with gusts 35+ it feels much colder. I got frost bite injuries from a event that happend to me back in my military days. One of many war stories of my past. Anyway it was cold to me and when i get cold i hurt all over due nerve damage. Its something i have to live with for the rest of my days here in Paradise. And as time keeps marching on and the older I get. It will get worse as I age. OH JOY! I will just have to wear more cloths i guess? I love winter and love to go play in the snow and ski ETC. But today I wasnt prepared for the shock effect of walking out side and that cold wind hit me like a Mack truck BOOM! Hello Pain. I looked like Nanook of the North as i walked to my Office from my little home away from home i stay at when im at work. i had a heavy coat and gloves and watch cap. But even then it takes time for me to warm back up. Wednsday it was 90 in south east NM and today it was high 50's and cloudy.

Lexy and her new pups are doing great. She is such a good girl and momma. Nothing real exciting happend at work. After work i had to go to a International Law Enforcement Grad dinner. The food sucked! Nasty Nasty I only ate the salad. Main course was dry chicken breast, the vegetable had no taste.

For those who have read my last posting I said some things that i didnt mean in anger! But you did hurt me. If you see this and i hope you do? For what it's worth im sorry please forgive me. I still care about you. and will always be there if you ever need me?

Have Great weekend Gentlemen stay safe and keep in touch.

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16 April 2008 @ 12:56 am

Thought's of a lonly pup in paradise

Greetings from Paradise. Today was nothing special just work as usual. I went to check on Lexy and her new pups she just had before my last posting. Those puppies are adorable. Lexy the mother even picked one up and then she came over and put it in my hands. WOW! i was in AWE she trusted me so much. It was a beautiful thing. It brought a tear to my eye. After all the good and bad things that took place last week. This made my day complete. A fellow pack member who encouraged me to start this journal called to let me know how his interview with a job he is hoping to get was a warm surprise. Thanks for calling me sir! I wish you the best luck. You will be very good at it. I have faith that you will get it. Have fun on the house project.

What else is new in paradise? My best Friend Mark who just passed last week boy Scott has deciced that he doesnt want or need my friendship and or help. So in away im kinda hurt and pissed but he made his own bed, so sleep in it? I did tell him that If he wants my friendship or help im here. But i know he wont? So have a nice life Scott. Go back to California and dont let the door hit you in the ass on the way out. Your loss not mine.

Just found out from another pup who knows Ruger mentioned he got to California. Ruger if you give a shit or care and see this Posting WARNING: Im pretty pissed off at you little man. I dont get mad often but fair warning im very pissed off at you. It really hurts to know that you couldnt call or text me just to let me know your there safe. But OH WELL what comes round goes round? Sooner or later somebody is going to hurt you someday like you hurt me!   I hope you hurt just as bad! But who gives a shit right?

Hey Will your now Rugers or Bruin or what ever the fuck you call him new master, trainer, and life partner. I Hope you teach this boy some respect and discipline. You got your hands full I wish you best of luck and hope he doesnt hurt you like he hurt me.

In tribute I dedicate a Song by Foreigner "That Was Yesterday" just for you Ruger

LYRICS:

               I thought I knew you well
        But all this time I could nenver tell
                    I let you get away
        Haunts me every night and every day

               You were the only one
     the one friend that I counted on
    How could I watch you walk away?
    I'd give anything to have you here
      But now I stand alone with my pride
    And dream that you're still by my side

           But that was Yesterday
     love was torn from my hands
      but is not the end of my world
    just a slight change of plans

               That was Yesterday
           but today life goes on
      no more hiding in yesterday
          Cause Yesterday is gone

           Love, my love I gave it all
thought i saw the light when i heard you call
             Life we could both share
has deserted me and left me in despair
                             But now
   But now I stand alone with my pride
fighting back the tears i never let
                      myself cry

             That was Yesterday
           but today life goes on
You wont find me in yesterday's world
              now yesterdays gone

GOODBYE RUGER! GOOD RIDENCE! YOUR DEAD TO ME NOW!

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14 April 2008 @ 02:40 am

Thoughts of a lonly pup in paradise

Hello brother's and those who give a shit. Today in paradise was one my better days. I got to help deliver 6 health German Shepard pup this after noon. 4 Females and 2 Male very cute puppies. This was the first litter for Lexy. She is a sweet baby girl and a good mother . It was so exciting to witness the miracle of life and be there in case the mother needed some assistance. Not much esle to say,but who gives a shit right? CARRY ON! Be safe

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13 April 2008 @ 03:55 am

Thought's of a lonely pup in paradise

Hello to those who give a flying shit fuck. I been gone. Just another day in pardise. Friday was in Phoenix for meetings. Didnt write Thursday i was hung over from a well deserved night of getting fucked up due to past events that happend to my buddy Mark on Wednsday His boy scott is 26 years old and wow talk about shelterd lad? I barely know scott. Just about a year half ago or longer my buddy Mark who is a retired Marine. came out to me. Had i been able to retire from the Marines i would have in 2006. Long fucking story with lots of red tape. I spent 8 in the Corps. For you readers who dont know me yet Im former U.S. Marine. I just retired last december as a state trooper but if you gave a shit you knew that from the get go.

I dont know who was more surprised me or him? About being a non cat licker. For you rocks reading this it basically means I dont do pussy or woman PERIOD! Need I say more? Im gay and proud of it! Now ya know. So back to what 's new in paradise. Marks was only child so we wont talk about immediate family. When it came time to make the big decisions and the funeral arrangements i had to pull teeth trying to explain things to Scott! And i be DAMNED that Mark was going to have a Marine Corps burial with full honors! Scott has no concept of military or Marines and you would think if your lover was a marine by now you know how a marine thinks and the way they live their structured lives? NOT! No offense Mark but you could have done better. We butted heads more than a few times. I leave it up to you to figure out who won? Mark got his military service and to me that is all that matterd.

The fucked up thing about it and still hurts. I had to go Phoenix AZ for a meeting that i couldnt get out of . I wasnt able be there at his service. It really hurts and will hurt for a while. That makes two deaths now for people I love and care about this year! I wasnt there for them. Ding Ding let get ready to rumble so i can beat the shit out of myself.

Saturday was rugers moving day! I texted him to wish him a safe journey and good luck with his new life and partner. As usual he didnt give a shit to say thanks or fuck you or kiss my ass! or respond. One thing i fucking hate is somebody who ignores me when all i want to do is be there friend! I fucking tired of being fucked over. It shows once again he never fucking cared. Still I would go out of my way for him! WHY? You fucking tell me and when i get the right answer we will compare notes! Fuck It Drive ON. Just another day in paradise but who gives a shit? Right!

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10 April 2008 @ 06:15 am

Thoughts of a lonly pup in pardise

Well for those of you who give a shit here is my second entry. I met this young man name Mike aka Woofpup back in December. For those of you who dont know me Im into guys who are human dogs. Im a real world canine trainer. Anyway I named him Ruger. Make a long story short before i put everybody to sleep. For the record i dont give a shit if i put you too sleep or not just deal with it! He failed to mention that there was somebody else and is now moving to San Francisco CA to be with his new Handler or Trainer. Name Will. I know i should count my losses and forget him? But i cant ok. I care about him I love him even though he and i will never be partners or me being his trainer. He is still part of my pack and those of you who dont know me or give a shit. IM am very protective of those who are worthy of my love and those i care about. I will defend my pack to the death. Im a Marine and i take care of my own. So ruger who lives in south Jersy leaves Saturday for California. Im very sad but oh well "Just another day in Paradise" I worry about him hard to explain but i do. I deserve better but I care about him so much and would gladly take him back in a heart beat. Im real good at beating myself up and torturing myself. but who gives a shit right?

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10 April 2008 @ 12:03 am

JUST ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE and thoughts of a lonely pup

First off before i run my suck, This is my first live journal entry for those who give a shit anyway? Whats new in paradise? First off i lift a glass of mead to another of many fellow comrades- packmates and one the many men in my life that i love and will miss. Here is to you Mark! May you rest in peace buddy! You are gone and will be missed but never forgotten. Me and you grew up together, loved together, grieved together, and served together. God bless you and dont worry i will do my best to help your boy Scott the love of your life through this. I have his six and i know you have both of ours? Will see you on the otherside. Tell Brandon, Shogun, Shinobi, my dad that i love them. Semper Fi Marine!

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